Chapter 16

Mika and Jon laid down on the futon and he pulled her into his arms to cuddle. She felt so good, not believing someone so great cares for her.

“Hey.” Jon says thinking she zoned out on him.

“Yeah.” Mika answered.

“Can you do something for me?” Jon asks. Mika wouldn’t know how to answer him what if he wants something kinky.

“Ok.”

Jon doesn’t understand why she’s hesitating. They are just talking for goodness sake. “I need you to be honest with me. I need to know you’ll stand up to me and tell me when I need to change something ok?”

”Sure Jon I can do that.” Mika smiled, that much she could do.

”What’s something you need from your boyfriend?” Jon asked out of the blue. He loves this time in a relationship, when you are getting to know the other person. “I need him to be tender, in a touchy, feely way.”

“Are you a clingy girlfriend?”

“As in can’t stand up by myself–no. As in I want to touch you all the time- yes.”

“Then why is my ass over here and why isn’t my girlfriend touching me?” Jon smiles trying to lightening the mood, letting Mika know that while they are talking it's nothing she should be scared of.

“Cos we are trying to be smart about this – so we can a) supply what the other needs or b) determine it's not something we can do and walk away before it gets to hard.” She answered seriously.

“But everything I’m hearing I love – I want to be touched all the time it's fun.” Jon explained while pulling Mika closer to him and kissing her softly.

“So do you like back massages?” She asks out of the blue.

“Hell yeah”

“Take off your shirt and turn over” She smirks and he grins at her with that megawatt white smile. He removes his shirt quickly but whines, “But we were cuddling.”

“Shut up just roll over.”

He shrugs and then he does and I smile, “damn you’ve got a great ass” Mika smirks and before he can say anything she tells him, “Shut it don’t even argue and no rolling your eyes.”
He smirks and tells Mika, “OK I know I’m busted so I’ll let you admire me.” He then moans as she hits a sore spot on his back. He quickly loses all ability to talk.

“What’s wrong Jon can’t get a massage and talk at the same time?”

“I can if I have to.” Jon answers dreamily.

Mika hits a spot that’s been driving him nuts he yelps.

“Am I hurting you?”

“No pet, you’re making me feel really good.”

“What have you done to yourself, you’re in knots.”

“I have no fucking clue – past 6mo or so certain spots have decided they hate me.”
Mika continued to massage his back for 40min without another word being said, she’s happy to do it to, she loves to give massages and since he’s willing she figures this is going to work out great.

After the massage he rolls over under Mika and has the most amazing royal regal blue eyes.

“Oh my God.” She gasps.

“What?”

“I love your eyes; I absolutely love your eyes.”

“Thank you” He says honestly without rolling his eyes at all at the compliment.

Mika hugged him; the then takes her face in his hands and softly kisses her. So tender, so deep and romantic, again he doesn’t get his tongue involved just kisses her from his heart.

“whoa” She moaned.

“you felt that too?” Jon asks.

“yeah I felt that too.”

“Something tells me babe we’re going to get along very well in the kissing department.” Jon smirks.

“Want to practice?” Mika smirked; two can play at this game of flirting he has going on.

“Oh yeah, for at least a few hours.” Jon smiled; damn this girlfriend thing was really working for him he thought.

Mika lye down on the side of him and the kisses begin. Very few men in Mika’s past just lie down and kiss her; normally the kisses had to be leading somewhere. With Jon they don’t. He does deepen the kisses, and his tongue caresses hers regularly, but that’s as far as he takes it. His hands stay in her hair or on her upper body, not even venturing yet to her breasts. He rubs her arm or her hip, sometimes her back. Mika can tell however, he is perfectly happy to just kiss her.

Jon broke the kiss for a bit, running his thumb over her well kissed mouth, “I love the way you kiss, you aren’t forceful or pushy or too wet or too dry –it's just pure fun kissing you.”

“I was thinking the same thing, you actually enjoy kissing.” Mika said with a layer of shock in her voice.

“Can I tell you a secret?” Jon asks.

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Chapter 15

Chapter 15

“My ring didn’t fit the way I thought it should to be securely stuck on my finger. I was scared a fan could pull it off if I got too sweaty, so whenever I was gonna be in a position that the fans could get a hold of my hands I would put the ring in the pocket of my pants, I had special pocket thing sewn into my pants so the ring was never far from me.”

“You thought people would take your ring?”

”Well my fans have a tendency to touch me whenever and wherever they can so it wasn’t a stretch to think they’d get the ring at some point.”

“So humor me here?” Mika would ask because she would wanna look towards the future for the first time in a long time.

“Yes pet?”

”If you were to get married again, and your then wife demanded the ring be on your finger at all times how would you react?”

”Badly. I don’t take well to demands. She would have to understand that I am an actor as well as a musician and some roles I take the guy isn’t married so right there it wouldn’t work. I also would never make such a demand on her so I would have a problem with it.”

”Do you not like to wear it?”

”No actually the opposite. I loved having the ring on my finger. When I would be flying from city to city or when I was in an interview I would twist the ring on my finger. I love the symbolism of the ring, I also however believe that a marriage does not start and end with a piece of jewelry. I was no less married to Dot if I had the ring on my finger or not.”

“Ok.” Mika said and then looked down. She really wanted to kiss him again but she couldn’t bring herself to kiss him yet. What if he found that too forward?
She was his girlfriend but just barely.

Jon would look at her and smile, damn she’s so open to him, he loves that, he loves that she is almost scared to offend him somehow. It seems almost impossible for this to be happening, he’s not used to someone being this concerned about his feelings.

“Mika what are you thinking?”

“That I really want to kiss you.”

”So why don’t you? Angel you’re my girlfriend you have rights you know?” He smiled.

”I do?”

”Yes remember when you thought you read it somewhere that girlfriends get kisses, well I looked it up, it's in the girlfriend bylaws. I’m not sure but rule 3a or something stating that girlfriends can kiss their boyfriends at any time throughout the day.”

”OH I like that bylaw.” Mika smirked and moved in to take his lips with hers.
Jon won’t let her pull back right away. He still wasn't possessing her mouth with his full force he needed to make sure she’s well aware of the desire that he has for her.

“So we have a few options for sleeping arrangements. We can sleep single on each bunk, we can sleep on top of each other on 1 bunk or on the back couch thing together.”

“I choose that.” She immediately stated.

Once they moved to the back of the bus she sees what is little more than a pulled out futon. He asks her if she’s going to be ok if he takes his shirt off.

“Well yes of course you can get as naked as you want just remember I have the right to gush over you and call you hot – you are mine after all.”

He rolls his eyes and Mika has seen that look enough. “Jon get over it – you’re good looking ok the entire world knows that. Everyone appreciates the eye candy, you can’t be blind when you look in the mirror. So if I ever see you roll your eyes again when I tell you I find you good looking or hot or sexy or whatever I’m going to ask your ex wife to teach me how to kick your ass.”

“Ok.”

“Huh?”

“Ok I won’t roll my eyes anymore when you say it.”

“Why are you all of a sudden not fighting me on this?”

”Because you weren’t afraid to stand up to me. You’re not too scared to tell me what you feel and I find that very sexy. “

Mika smirked, “Hey can’t a millionaire afford a better bus than this? Seriously, we’re sleeping on a futon?”

“Alright abuse the boyfriend. Give me a break, we stopped using the bus years ago. Now the only time we take it is if we are traveling 100 miles or less between gigs. Other than that we fly.”

”I guess I should know these things if I decide to be your manager next year huh?”

”Angel I seriously have to know soon. Paul is done in May and if you aren’t going to be my new manager I need to know so Tony can find another.”

“Jon I can’t give you that answer yet. I’m not ready.”

Jon tells her if she would have applied to the band a long time ago she would have been hired then. This has nothing to do with them dating Tony screened her for the job when she applied originally. Jon tell her he doesn’t want to deal with all the crap he hates the business side of things. He pays someone ‘very well’ to know all that stuff. “Bon Jovi is very successful and I make sure I pay someone very well to keep us that way.”

“Why do you say I a lot when you refer to the band?”

“Mika this is another of those conversations that’s just between us.”

”Ok.”

Once he got her agreement he told her. “I make more money than anyone in the band. I was signed to the record label originally as a solo artist, when the band was formed I had contacts drawn up that they would get a set portion of the money the record company made. I however am still paid separately. We are a band in every way, we are now signed as Bon Jovi the group but my royalties and my contract for them differs from everyone else’s. Richie is a close second because of all the song writing credits. I am the one that forked over the bill to make sure everyone had medical insurance. The record company doesn’t provide it. I am the one that everything lands on.”

“Well are you a corporation or soul proprietorship for liabilities sake?”

“I have no idea what you just asked me so I can’t tell you. I’m sure Paul would know.”

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Chapter 14

“Jon, shouldn’t I be anywhere but here when your kids show up?” Mika asked him not thinking he’d want to tell the kids anything about them yet.

“Actually you are reading my mind. I am very happy you are in my life Mika, but my kids will know nothing about us until I decide I’m in love with you. I’m willing to risk my own heart but not theirs.”

“How perceptive are they? Are you going to introduce us at all?”

”I don’t think so unless they pull it out of me. I may introduce you to Steph because she will know long before I’m ready to tell her. She can read me like a book.”

“So tell me about your kids?” Mika would ask cuddled up in his arms. Wanting nothing more than to ignore the world and kiss him again but she knows that isn’t about to happen.

“Well Stephanie is my girl. She’s a daddy’s girl if I’ve ever seen one. She also knows that I’m wrapped around her little finger. She’s beautiful and so smart. She’s confident and stubborn and amazingly unaffected by life. She just does her own thing. She’s my sunshine and whenever I’m the least big down she’ll give me a hug and tell me she loves me to the moon and back and I just melt.”

”You do realize you have a smile in your eyes?”

”Yes I love my baby girl. I love all of my kids but Steph holds a special place because she’s my baby girl.”

”Tell me about Jesse?”

”He’s stubborn and Dot’s boy. He’s 12 yrs old hates the world and hates me for leaving. However, about once a month he realizes I’m not the devil incarnate and wants to see me to talk ‘man things’. His man things are basically –dad what do I do my voice is cracking, my dreams aren’t like they used to be. So thankfully he may dislike me at times but he knows I’m dad and I’m always going to be there for him so he still talks to me.”

“Jake?”

”Jakey – he’s my little buddy. He’s special to me because he was the only one I was ever home to see really start to develop. I was away so much of the time with the other kids but Jakey I was home when he started giggling and when he figured out who everyone was – his first word was Dada. He rolled over for me first, crawled for the first time when I was in the room so I’m really attached to Jakey. He’s also the only kid into football as much as me so we go to lots of Soul practices and games
together.”

”And Romeo?”

”He’s also daddy’s boy. He’s so young though all we do is play trucks together.”

“Can I ask you an odd question?”

”Sure but remember I have every right not to answer.”

”You sound like you loved being married and actually valued your relationship with Dorthea.”

”I did.”

”Then why didn’t you wear your wedding ring often?”

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Chapter 13

Jon hugged her again and smile. “I suppose we should talk about how some of this is going to go huh?”

”What do you mean?”

”Me and my fans. You know I kiss women every single night on stage.”

”Yes I’ve seen you do it about 40 times so far.”

”That’s not going to change, its part of the act.”

”And if I don’t like it?” Mika asked him.

”Then we’ll have problems right off the bat. First of all the fans don’t respect the fact I’m taken, engaged, married it doesn’t matter. Fans think I’m public property.”

”One thing you don’t understand is that I am a fan. I get it. I’ve seen you do it many times.”

”Yes but you’ve seen me many times when I wasn’t yours. Now that I’m yours how is that going to play into it?”

”OH say that again.” Mika smiled.

“What that you’ve seen me many times?” Jon played with her.

“No, the other part.” Mika said rather exasperated.

”That I’m yours.” Jon smirks.

”Yeah I like that.” She smiled. Jon smiled back he knew it's been too long since this beautiful woman has had many reasons to smile. He feels it's his job to make her smile again.

“I am yours. I asked you to be mine and I mean it. I got over being dumb and stupid like cheating on my significant other years ago. I don’t do that shit anymore.”

”Really?”

“Yes really. I’m not the type of guy to cheat on my woman, it's cruel and worthless. If I’m in a relationship and don’t want to be I’m man enough to say so and walk away before hurting that woman by cheating. I figure if you can’t be man enough to break something off then you aren’t man enough to be involved in the first place.”

“What happens to me working for you if this doesn’t work?” Mika unfortunately had seen the darker side of life to often to not try to prepare for it.

”Nothing Pet. If you want to continue working with me you do, if you don’t you don’t.”

”Why don’t I believe that?”

”It's not Bon Jovi Enterprises policy to restrict relationships of staff or crew because we figure people should be adult enough to police their own relationships.”

“And what if I become your manager?”

“We’ll be fine as long as you understand within the world of Jovi I am final saying so for everything with the band – this is my baby. If you hate working for me but want to stay with me we can do that too. Or the other way around, I can be professional with someone I’ve kissed or done other things with before.“ Jon stated with all seriousness.

“Are you too good to say Bon Jovi now?” Mika smiled at him, letting him know she heard him but yet wanted things to remain light.

“OH I so walked into that one. You my ladylove are a prize.” Jon then leaned into Mika and tenderly laid his hand on the side of her face. He brought his head towards her, his lips tenderly caressing hers. Not wanting to scare her or have Mika believe he’s with her for the wrong reasons he doesn’t even ask permission for his tongue to dance with hers. Next time. This time he just wanted her to feel the tender caress of his lips against hers.

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Chapter 12

Chapter 12

“So Mika, I don’t know if you’ve figured out exactly what I’m trying to do here but riding on the bus from one city to another is my way of trying to date you. Pizza, movies, but I can’t actually take you out while on the road. In Jersey I could get away with it. So would you like to go on a date with me?”

“Since you went through all this I can’t really say no.”

”Yes you can say no, I’ll sleep on this bus to the next city and you can ride with the crew. I just thought this was a nice way for us to spend some time alone together to see if this could amount to anything.”

“I’d like to date you Jon.”

Mika and Jon then sit on the couch, eat dinner and watch a movie, ending with Jon’s arm around her shoulders.

Jon reached over at the end of the movie and kiss Mika’s cheek.

“Wow you’re awful forward on a first date.” Mika would smile at him and Jon unfortunately misses the smile and feels ashamed.

“I’m so sorry I didn’t mean to offend.”

Mika then remembers that the last time Jon dated he was a teenager so she quickly corrects the situation.

“Jon chill, I was just giving you a hassle.”

“Stop that you brat.” Jon admonishes. “You are abusing the man in your life and that’s not nice.”

“Are you the man in my life?”

“I hope so.”

”We go on one date and now you think we’re a couple?”

“I’m never gonna win with you am I?”

”Yes you will.”

”How?”

”Ask me a question, don’t assume.”

”I thought the assumptive close was a good one? Aren’t you in sales?”

”Not anymore.”

”Will you be my girlfriend?” Jon asks hopefully. He hasn’t had to ask that question since he was a teenager either. He waited with hopeful breath for Mika’s answer.

“Yes Jon I’ll be your girlfriend.” She smiles and receives a hug.

“Wow girlfriends only get hugs?”

”You need to stop.”

”Why?”

”I’m not going to kiss you when you expect it?”

”Why?”

”That takes all the surprise out of it.”

”Why do I have to be surprised? Aren’t I your girlfriend? Don’t girlfriends get kisses whenever they want them?”

”Whenever?”

”Yes I thought I read that somewhere.” Mika would smile really wanting to kiss him but loving the fact they can play like this too.

“Just so I have this straight. I’m onstage at lets say Giants Stadium and you motion to me you want a kiss. I’m supposed to stop the show, jump off the stage come kiss you then go back to the show?”

”OH yeah that sounds great.” Mika smiled. “It probably wouldn’t happen but it’d be fun.”

”Yeah and all the fans would hate you in about 2 min.”

”Yeah I’d be one of them.” She smiled.

“Angel you can’t hate yourself.” He laughed.

“Well if it wasn’t me you were kissing I’d hate the girl.”

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Chapter 11

"I still don’t get why it sooths your soul, I don’t get how our music helps you deal with the loss of a parent.” Jon admitted. “It's not necessarily just the loss of my mom – she represented so much more, home, family, stability – without her there is no home for the holidays – you can’t go home when it doesn’t exist, Jovi is my escape, I don’t have to deal with how heavy that is if I’m absorbed in Bon Jovi. Think about it, in 2 months I’ll spend my first holiday without being able to be with mom, it wouldn’t be my first holiday I spent without her but this one is the first where it's not my option. Touring with the band gets me out of my old routine of calling mom every day, with my last job, every day when I go to the parking lot I’d call her, it was my way of gauging how she was, if there was anything wrong it was my way to find that out. We had this system worked out where I would always ask her ‘what do you know’ she’d tell me nothing and I’d ask her what she did and she’d say I went and did this or that and my answer was ‘you’re lying to your only kid.’ It was our little daily joke. I don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have this, I’d cry every day. I can’t call my childhood number anymore, the one we’ve had since I was four and get mom anymore. Soon it will stop working all together, right now it's routing to my house in Wisconsin.” ”You’re a very strong woman Mika. I honestly am in awe. The one time my dad was sick and had to be taken to the hospital I flipped the fuck out. He can’t be sick, he can’t be weak, he can’t get sick, he’s dad and he must be strong. I’m 45 yrs old and still have both of parents. They’ve seen me married and they’ve met their grandkids, they wanted to pull their hair out because of their grandchildren. I’ve had all those memories.” Jon looked at her and asked, “Do you want to get married?” Mika looked at him like he has 3 heads. “NO I’m not asking right now – this is not how I’d do it if I’d ask. What I mean is the concept of getting married. I look at it that a lot of times with a woman getting married is a way to complete that final stage of going from a girl to a woman. When Dot and I got married in Vegas it was because Dot is very similar to you. She didn’t know her dad he died when she was like 2 or something and her mom died at 16. She had no desire for a wedding. She wanted forever but told me it's the marriage that counts not that day I didn’t want to remind her of everything she didn’t have.” “Something tells me if I met dot we’d get along very well .” “Is that how you feel too?” “I have no desire to be reminded on the “happiest day of my life” of what I can’t have. Dad can’t walk me down the aisle – mom’s not there to give me away or talk to my future husband about how he better take care of her baby girl. Why would I want that?” “You don’t want to get married?” “I do but I’d want Vegas or something very similar, ‘you two love each other, great, promise you will forever, great, sign here kiss and go have a marriage. It's about the two people involved not the rest of the world.” Mika would tell him hoping he understands her thought process.

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Chapter 10

That night after the concert Jon wants Mika backstage he thinks he deserves a kiss but unfortunately when he’s done with work for the night Mika is not.

Jon would entertain himself with the fans, taking what Mika said to heart he actually gives them more of a chance to calm down before deciding that they still couldn’t have a coherent conversation. Eventually he decides he’s going to go on the bus. At tells Dan the fill in for Paul on the road, to tell Mika to come to his bus after tear down. He thinks maybe they can ride from town to town together and that can be a way for us to ‘date’ lack of better terms. The guys normally fly from city to city but they do have a band bus and Jon can just choose to take the bus so he and Mika can be alone.

Now that he has a plan he opens up the bus and also opens a bottle of wine. He actually has his production assistant run and get them pizza before Mika arrives. He so want to change into sweats and no shirt but he figures if this is going to be a ‘date’ he shouldn’t get that forward. She has every right to see him looking like he would if they were going to go out for pizza for example.

Dan would tell Mika that Jon would like her to go to the band bus when the equipment is all set.
Mika would walk to the bus confused. She’s never seen the guys in the band take the bus from town to town. Normally they fly and sleep in plush hotels while the road crew drives through the night sleeping on the bus.

Once outside the band bus Mika knocks, “Come in.” Jon says from inside.

“I don’t know how to open the door.” Mika yells back.

“It's a secret.” Jon would say as he opens the door then smirks. ”Secret, Secret I got a secret” He starts to sing a Styx song.

“OH no you are Jon – you sing Jovi, not Styx.”

”I’ve been hiding, under my skin” Jon continues to sing and Mika would smack him lightly in the stomach.

“Shut up”

“Don’t’ want me to sing no more?” He pouts.

“Stop pouting it's just so not – ok it's sexy but shut up.” I’d smile.

He then realizes they are outside and he wants to move this date along. “It might help if I gave you code huh?” He smiles, just noticing how she looks tonight. He loves the look she has right now, her hair quite out of place because she was rocking out to the show and sweating along with him, then she still had to work afterwards. She comes to him in a Bon Jovi shirt that states, “Finding My Way on this Lost Highway” on the back and Bon Jovi CREW on the front with the rose and heart dagger design. To Jon she’s beautiful as she is.

“OK rock star you in there?” Mika would spout off because Jon zoned out.

”Yes smartass I’m here. Anyway, here’s the access box and what year was I born?”

”1962.” Mika would say to him without thinking. “You can’t honestly tell me you’re using that as a code, like your fans wouldn’t know it as fast as I did.”

“OH good call.” He then smirks and changes it to 2691.

“You’re kidding right? Your birth year backwards?”

“Hey feisty woman what’s up with you. You’re normally sassy. But tonight you’re off the charts.”

“You can’t honestly be asking me why I’m sassy?”

We are on the bus so I turn to look at him straight in the eye.

“OK can I be the gushing fan now?”

”Yes ok I’ll deal.”

“OH MY GOD Jon Bon Jovi just sang to me tonight!”

“You done now?”

“yeah”

“It's so good to see you smile like this, I’ll let you be the gushing fan if it’ll make you smile.”

”It’s getting easier to smile Jon.”

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