The End

Jon woke up the following morning so in love. He was happy
that Mika finally found a way to connect to him, finally found a way
to believe in him. He moved slightly to kiss her. Mika smirked
and then kind of wiggled her way towards him. “Good Morning lover.” Jon
smiled before giving her a tender kiss. The kiss quickly turned heated and
more love making ensued.


Afterwords Jon kissed Mika’s neck and whispered to her, “I love you.”

“I love you Jon. Thank you.”

”For what?” Jon asked her still playing with her hair.

“Sticking it out. It doesn’t hurt to love anymore.”

“Good honey it's not supposed to.” Jon kissed her again.

“Jon I survived the biggest loss ever and I didn’t die from it. You put
up with my fear. You dealt with my anger, you fought through the
walls and made me love you. I love you Jon.” She kissed him
deeply.

“I love you Mika. I’m glad that the band and coming on the road
helped you. I’m very happy that you let me show you how to heal a
heart. Letting love in is the best medicine.” Jon rolled onto his
back and pulled Mika too him. He knew now, that somehow he and Mika
will last. He never thought he’d get through to her. He never
thought she’d ever let him in but last night when they made love
she gave him her everything. He gladly shouldered her pain, the
smile in her eyes that he saw this morning is the one thing he’ll
search for every day from now on.



The end.

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Chapter 26

After he finished the song Mika grabbed his guitar, she moved it to the side before sitting on his lap and kissing him deeply. “Richie says you aren’t feeling well, maybe I should take you to bed.” “Take me to bed or lose me forever.” ”You really don’t want to be called Tom Cruise do you?” “Hell no –he’s weird.” Jon told Mika and kissed her again with more hunger than ever before. Mika took Jon’s hand and walked him back to the bedroom area on the bus. She turned around and looked at him. “You are too good on stage.” She pulled his shirt off him hungrily. “Really?” Jon asked kissing her and caressing her hips and around to her butt. “Yes and it made me so wet.” She’d then lean down and nibble on his chest, right above his nipple. “I love you wet.” Jon pulled her body closer to his so she can feel his erection through his jeans. “Angel you feel so good.” “Damn Jon I want you. You are such a tease on stage.” Mika smiled and nibbled on his neck. “Fuck.” Jon moaned and all but tackled her to the bed. He’s gentle enough to not to hurt her but animalistic enough to prove to her that he’s horny and it's time they finally gave that part of themselves to each other. “Mika I need you.” He pushed into her with his hips making her moan. He then reached into his pocket and took out a condom placing it next to them on the bed. Mika saw that and smiled, he is respecting her wishes of no condomless sex so she felt it only fair to give him something special for that. She fliped him over on his back and he moaned deep. “Damn Mika I need you.” “It's ok Jon. Tonight I’m a sure thing, enjoy.” With that she moved down his body and nibbled on his bare chest and stomach. Kissing her way down his happy trail and unbuttoning his jeans. Jon smiled and ran his hand into Mika’s hair. She knew this isn’t going to take long, Jon is so hard already she just wanted to taste him. When she got his pants unzipped the head of his cock is visible and she starts licking it, around the head and sucked it into her mouth while she took his pants off the rest of the way. Jon threw his head back more and moaned. Mika took more and more of his cock into her mouth while she rubbed his thighs and finally his balls. “MIKA!” Jon screamed and she stopped, looked up at him with his cock still in her mouth he smiled. “Fuck you’re hot. Come here” Jon pulled her back up to him to remove the sensation or he was going to cum like a teenager. Mika crawled back up his body and he flipped her over. “My turn to tease.” ”No you did that all night.” Mika smirked. Jon stayed up near her head then and kissed her, his hands roaming and his fingers finding her wet and willing. Jon enticed her more with his hand, his lips and tongue silently communicating his need. Finally when he can't take it one more moment he donned the condom and raised his body over hers. “You sure?” He asked. Knowing how against sex she has been he has to know she won’t regret this in the morning. He knew he may regret asking the question but he cared about her too much not to. “Yes Jon I’m sure, take me I’m yours.” “All mine?” He asked teasing with the tip of his cock against her wet folds. “Yes all yours, please Jon.” He smirked and pushed inside of her so deeply with one fluid movement. He stopped as soon as he was fully inside and kissed her again slowly and deeply. “OH Mika, Angel you feel so good.” Jon kissed her again and what was to be hot passionate sex quickly turned to something close to lovemaking. He feels at home inside her. The other reason for the change in the style of sex is just Mika. She wasn’t easy, she wasn’t cheap she held herself to a certain level. Point blank she was so damn tight inside and he was afraid he’d hurt her. He realized he must have hit just the right spot inside of Mika because she is wiggling around under him and her body suddenly felt like a vice on his cock. “OH baby, let go, cum for me.” Jon moved down to her and kissed her neck, her ear and her shoulder before he felt her orgasm rock her body again. “That’s it angel. Oh you feel so good.” Jon finally allowed himself to reach his own peak and as he came his head is down by her collarbone. He nibbled a little pushing inside one last time. After his body stopped spasming he lifted his head up to kiss her and smirked. “Baby you’re mine.” “I know baby, that was so good.” Jon kissed Mika again and smiled. “I marked you that’s how much you’re mine.” “That’s ok.” Mika smiled as he moves out of her and disposed of the condom. She’s still pretty much out of it when Jon crawled back into bed to hold her. “Thank you for finally committing to me completely angel.” “No problem, I love you Jon.” She said barely awake but he heard it and his heart smiled.

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Chapter 25

Jon wasn’t kidding when he told Mika she was going to be his after that nights show. While on stage he did every move she’s ever mentioned liking. During the show he shook his ass more times then ever. He knew after looking at her half way into the show that he had won. She was his.

As he walked off the stage he looked for her and then realized she was taking down his side stage. Damn, he was so horny and she was still working. He began to think of a way to get her out of work.

“Rich-“Jon bellowed.

“Yeah man.”

“Come up with a reason that Mika has to come back here now.”

“In heat bro?”

“Basically yeah – but if I go get her she’ll flip out on me.”

“Alright go to the bus I’ll tell her you aren’t feeling well and I’m worried.”

”You’re the best.” Jon knocked knuckles with Richie and walked onto the bus. Richie laughed silently at Jon's childish antics then walkied Mika, “Mika – need you backstage asap.”

”Rich can it wait we almost have the stage down.”

“No now, sorry Marsha.” Richie comments.

“It's ok Rich you just owe me.”

”I’ll pay up Darlin I promise.”

Mika would then head backstage. “So what’s the big deal?”

“Jon’s sick, he seemed very odd after the show I sent him to lay down on the bus. I’m just not the nursemaid type, go fix him ok.”

“Go fix him? Richie, even rock stars get colds.”

“Mika, he needs your TLC. You’re the girlfriend – kiss him make it better.” Richie gently pushed Mika towards the bus.

Mika smirked. Something told her that Richie is on Jon’s side, she had no issue with that though, she needed Jon. After how he was on stage tonight she needed his body in hers as soon as possible.

She opened the door to the bus and smiled, Jon has lit candles everywhere and has his guitar on his lap, playing and started to sing.



How you spend your minutes are what matters
All tomorrows come from yesterday's
When you're feeling broke and bruised and sometimes shattered
Blew out the candles on the cake like everything's a big mistake
It seems you always wait for life to happen
And your last buck can't buy a lucky break
If all we've got is us then life’s worth living
And if you're in, you know I'm in
I'm ready and I'm willing

I Am
When you think that no-one needs you
Sees you or believes you
No ones there to understand
I Am
I'll be there to be that someone
When you think that no one, is there to hold your hand
I Am

We're just who we are, there's no pretending
It takes a while to learn to live in your own skin
Say a prayer that we might find our happy ending
And if you're in, you know I'm in
I'm ready and I'm willing

And I ain’t got no halo hanging over my head
I ain’t gonna judge you, I'm just here to love you
I Am
I Am

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Chapter 24

Jon and Mika have a little problem over the next few days when it comes to communication. It almost seems like they are talking in two different languages. Jon got the test results back from his Dr. and wanted to go over them with Mika. He walked out to her while she and Marsha are trying to lock down his stage. The stage however won’t fit with the seats in the arena so Mika and Marsha stress out and are distracted.

”Hey Mika can I see you for a minute.”

”Jon if you aren’t my boss right now I don’t have time.”

”Excuse me.” He said a little upset. “I want to talk to you.”

”As my boyfriend or my boss because right now I’m a roadie, I’m at work.”

“I get that but this is important.” Jon said now pretty annoyed.

”So is making sure the lead singer of my favorite band doesn’t break his neck on this stage. I’ll talk to you later.” Mika said by way of a dismissal.

Jon got pissed and storm backstage. “How dare she blow me off.”
Jon threw the letter in his stage clothes cabinet and picked up a guitar and start playing.

Before long Mika walked backstage to talk to him but he’s in the middle of sound check and Jon blows her off on purpose because of earlier that morning. Mika got just as pissed as he was and she went to the bus put on her rollerblades and take off with no cell phone.

Mika was so upset with him that she’s thinking of breaking it off. Can’t Jon just understand if he’s going to put limitations on her then she’s going to hold on to her heart even tighter. Jon kept telling her he wants her to open up to him, but he’s not even allowing her to be his girlfriend in front of his kids. Why does he want something he’s not willing to give? This relationship thing is just more work than it's worth. It's not until she’s back inside the arena roller blading that her IPOD decides to set her straight. Jon’s soulful voice comes to her through her ear buds and almost makes her cry because she can actually hear Jon saying these things to her.

These days, its hard to have a heart
It doesn't matter where you come from, or who you think you are
These days, it's hard just fitting in
Why does someone have to lose, for someone else to win
We're all looking for forgiveness, and someone we can trust
You can wrap your arms around the world
It all comes down to us

Mika realizes then and there Jon is trying to give her what she’s always wanted but she’s just being stubborn and scared.


This is the last night, you'll have to be alone
I'll be standing right beside you, you can't make it on your own
So walk with me, please, help me to be strong
I'll be the shoulder you can lean on, when everybody's gone
This is the last night, you'll have to be alone

I know, you, heard it all before

There's nothing worst than living less
When you yearn for something more
Makes no sense, its hard to understand
When there's something that should fill you up
Keeps slipping through your hands

We're all looking for answers
We're all down here on our knees
All anybody really wants, is something to believe
Enough is enough, I can't take any more
But I'm standing on your front porch
Kicking down your door
This is the last night
This is the last night

Without even realizing it Mika is at the door to Jon’s dressing room. She knocked and waited to see if he’ll answer.

When he opened the door she looked at him. “I’m sorry.” Escaping from her lips.

“So am I roller girl, come here.” Jon pulled Mika into his arms for a hug.
After the hug he took her ipod and hit the back button to see what song caused her to come to him. Seeing it was one of his he knew she’s true to the core when she said Bon Jovi makes her whole.

“So are you ready to be loved now? Completely?” Jon asked in such a way that Mika doesn’t even get offended.

“Actually I am if you can prove to me it's safe to do so.”

Jon walked over to his stage case and pulled out the letter from his Dr. Handing it to Mika he sat on the couch in his dressing room and looked at her expectantly. He doesn’t know what’s going to be in that envelope but he knew he’s gotta take the risk of her rejecting him for the results because if he doesn’t take the first step she'll never believe in him.

As Mika opened the envelope and looked over at Jon who is sitting still with a hopeful look on his face. Mika looked down at the Dr’s report.

~ Jon I personally tested the blood sample you had sent to me for the following STD’s here are your results. Please contact me if you have any questions. Dr Wilson. ~
AIDS-Negative
HIV-Negative
Gonorrhea-Negative
Chlamydia-Negative
Syphilis-Negative
Trichomonas-Negative
Human papillomavirus (HPV)-Negative
Genital herpes-Negative
Hepatitis B and Hepatitis C-Negative

~of course the best way to stay this way is to abstain from sex or at the very least use a condom every time~

“Jon your Dr. says you should abstain from sex.” Mika laughed.

“Yeah he’s been saying the same thing for the past 30 yrs of my life. I would think
he’d figure out I’m not listening. So what are the results?”

Jon asked not having seen them yet.

“You didn’t open this before giving it to me?” Mika asked.

“NO that’s what I came to find you for earlier I wanted to open them together since they affect both of us in a way.”

”Jon you’re clean, of everything including STD’s I didn’t know existed.” Mika told him.

“Really?” Jon got up and grabbed the paper to look for himself.

“What the hell is Trichomonas?”

”I don’t know but personally I’m glad you don’t have it.”

“Me to babe, me too.” Jon took Mika into his arms and kissed her.

“So baby, what do you say? Now that you know it's safe to be with me.” Jon smirked.

“Jon just because I have a piece of paper doesn’t mean I’m going to jump you right this moment.” Mika smirked.

“That’s it. Woman I’ve been playing nice but now I’m refusing to. I am going to turn you on so bad tonight while I’m on stage you are going to drop to your knees and worship my body.”

“I am?” Mika smirked.

“Yes because damnit I’m horny I’m STD free and you’re hot therefore I want my girlfriend and if you won’t behave yourself and just be a great girlfriend and have sex with your man then I’m going to be so confident, arrogant and sexy on stage tonight that you’ll be begging me to let you get under me so you can scream all night.” Jon then smiled that oh so delicious smirk and kiss her. One way or another she will be his tonight after the show. She’s gotta be he can’t handle many more cold showers.

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Chapter 23

Jon actually had a Dr. take his blood and send it to his long time family Dr to run all the tests Mika wanted. As much as it aggravated him that she didn’t trust him sexually when he stood back he could see things from her point of view. She had told him in one of their long night drive talks that she’s only had sex with 3 people in her whole life. It's not something she gives away freely. Just to the men she loves. Well he could almost say the same thing if it wasn’t for the fact it was completely not true in his regard. He had sex with many women. The first time when he was 12 and he had to face reality, even though he was tested before he and Dot got married, that didn’t really mean he was safe considering what she did. This was however, the last barrier of hers he was willing to deal with.

Finally, 3 days after the kids go home Jon found Richie, “Rich man I need my bro.”

”OK what’s up brother?”

“Women.”

”Multiple or just Mika?” Richie smiled. Jon hasn’t had too many women problems since he’s been with Dorothea for most of the time he’s known him.

“Mika, Rich she’s killing me.”

”How so?” Richie asked.

”I love her. I’ve tried not to but it hasn’t worked. I don’t want to love her because I think she can’t love me. What do I do?”

”What do you mean she can’t love you?”

”I honestly think she’s scarred way to deep to try one more time. Every time I think we are getting closer she finds something to fight with me about or some reason to walk away.” Jon admitted.

“Maybe you have to give her a reason to believe. Give her something that only you can.”

”Keep talking Sambora.”

”Give her the part of you she’s comfortable with to show her you’ll give her what she wants and needs. After she relaxes a bit have a conversation about what things sooth you like music soothes her. Let her know having a woman that’s constant in your life is like a security blanket for you.”

”Rich your nuts I’m not like that.” Jon tried to be offended.

“The hell your not – Jovi you are a serial monogamist. IF you could be married and taken today you would be. Am I wrong?” Richie challenged.

“No you’re not.” Jon laughed damn his brother knows him well.

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Chapter 22

A week passed before Jon can even blink, he’s so happy having the kids around that he and Mika barely see one another. They travel with him and Mika travels with the roadies. She doesn’t mind really because Jon talked to her before they showed up so she knows he’s trying to keep things calmer for them right now.

The afternoon is floating by as everyone is sitting backstage talking and laughing, Romeo is still climbing all over his uncle Richie when Dorothea walks in the backstage area. She saw Mika and instantly got pissed about it.

“Jon can I talk to you?”

”Sure Dorothea.” Jon got up realizing she’s pissed just by her tone. He’s damn well not going to let her mess this up for him and Mika.

“What are you thinking? Bringing another woman around my kids. You can’t do that they need stability in their lives.”

“Hold the fuck up. Let me see if I get this straight, you the woman that walked away from a 28 yr relationship is preaching to me about stability for our kids. That’s right Dorothea, OUR kids not yours. They had stability they had everything until you walked out. So don’t you dare come in here and preach that shit. Mika is around them because she is part of the road crew and Steph has become friends with her.” Jon then stepped into Dorothea’s personal space and grabbed both her wrists in a hold he knows will neutralize her karate skills so he doesn’t have to worry about her swinging at him.

“Jon you can’t just bring girls around the kids.” She said quietly but with a warning tone in her voice.

”Dorothea, don’t make a scene. You broke my heart remember, you cheated; you walked out on our marriage. I signed the divorce papers against my own desires. Don’t fuck this up for me. You don’t have the right.”

”Jon.” She started in again.

“NO chill the hell out. Dorothea please don’t mess this up for me.” He pleaded with her. Hoping she still had some feelings for his well being.

”You really like her don’t you?” She softened of course, as mad as she is that he had someone around the kids, her only reason for anger was that it proved he’s starting to move on. As nice as her life was now, deep down she’ll always regret that he will never call her Dot again, that he’ll never come home to her again. She messed up the best thing she ever had. No matter what she knows she can’t begrudge him some happiness.

“Yes I think I could fall in love with her.” Jon admitted to his ex wife knowing full well he's way beyond thinking about loving Mika, he's already there. He then lets go of her wrists knowing that she’s ok now.

“Ok I’ll behave.”

With that Jon and Dorothea walked back into the room with the kids. But by now Mika has left, she did not want to be on the receiving end of Jon’s ex-wife’s tantrum.

Jon and the kids say their goodbyes and they leave.

“Where did Mika go?” Jon asked Richie.

“Don’t know she just said it wasn’t the place for her and left.”

”Alright I’ll see you later man.” Jon got up, turned to the door and left the backstage area and started walking around trying to find Mika.

He knew that having Dot walk in and immediately getting up to talk to her had probably hurt Mika, he also knew that she has no idea what he talked to Dot about so he has to find her to tell her.

Jon finally came across Mika sitting outside of the arena, looking out at the lake that the arena butts up against.

“Hey you, I’ve been looking for you.” Jon smiled softly.

“Why?”

”Well because you’re my girlfriend and I want to talk to you.” Jon answer wondering how much trouble he’s in for talking to his ex.

“Are you sure? I mean I’m just part of the road crew.” She said making Jon realize she must have heard him as he began talking to Dot and took it wrong.

“Hold it. Mika how mad are you at me for what you think you heard?” Jon knew that at this point in his life, after having been with women enough to realize they tend to jump to conclusions so he’s just going to cut across the river and get to the other side now.

“I’m just part of the road crew how can I be angry?”

”Damnit Mika I told you that is the way the kids would know you before I was ready to admit to deep feelings, then and only then would they know you as my girlfriend. Now they figured it out, the older ones anyway. What you heard was me dealing with my ex in a way I see fit. She has no rights to my life now so why tell her something else that’s going to make her even madder.”

“I’m mad because you didn’t admit to being with me.”

”So you’re mad at me for protecting you from her anger.” Jon asked pointedly.

“Her anger doesn’t mean anything to me. I need to know you’re in this.” Mika told him.

“I thought you understood my views on when my kids know about us.”

”I’m not talking about the kids – I’m talking about the rest of the world.”

“Can I win with you at all? I seriously am feeling like the answer is no. You don’t want to love
me completely, you want to take things slow, you’re scared to commit fully to me, you won’t even have sex with me but yet you want the world to know we’re a couple. Which is it? Are we a couple completely or not?”

”Jon I’m not having sex with you until the Dr. proves you’re clean of disease. As much as I think you’re a great guy I’m not dying to have sex with you.”

“Baby I have no problems using condoms.”

”Good cos when we find out your clean you will be using them but I’m not going there until we find out.”

“You’re serious? I’ve never had a woman require I get tested before.”

”Yes Jon I’m serious. I know you were with Dot forever, but you’ve let it be known you aren’t perfect and if she was cheating on you then you may have been infected by her. Not to mention what you may have done since then.”

”I’ll admit I did get stupid when she broke my heart.”

”Did you use a condom?”

”Yes the only woman I haven’t used one with is my ex wife.”

“Jon did you cheat on your wife?”

“No. Now if you ask if I cheated on that same woman when she was my girlfriend the answer is yes. Once I made that solemn vow I honored it. I was not always the perfect boyfriend.”

“What changed? It was still Dot.”

“Yeah but if I swear in church that I’m gonna do something. I do it.”

“But you got married in Vegas.”

”Only the first time Mika. After we got married there, we flew back to Jersey called all the guys in the band and had a wedding in our church back home two days later. My mom organized it.”

“So do you ever see yourself getting married again?” Mika asked fearing he’ll say no now that he’s had more time to get to know her.

“OH Lawrd – hell yeah.”

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Chapter 21

Jon looked up a few moments later to see Jake swinging his butt with his hands on his hips then his fist thrusting to the air.
“Hey Jakey what’s up?” Jon asked.
“I rockstar!”
“Of course you are buddy.”
”Like daddy!” He smiled and crawled in to Jon’s lap. Jon just smiles and looks around the room, his life is good. That is until he can’t find his daughter.
”Where’s Steph?”
”In the arena, she didn’t wanna sit still.” Tico answered him.
“OH crap.” Jon said as he gathered his two youngest up and walks out into the arena to find his daughter. He of course doesn’t have to worry Steph is sitting on the railing next to Mika who is securing Jon’s side stage.
Jon walked up to Mika, “Is she bothering you?” He looked at his daughter like she’s almost in trouble.
“Nope we’re getting along great.” Mika smiled to Jon and continued working on the stage.
“Yep I’m telling Mika how dorky you are with my boyfriend.” Steph teased her dad.
“Your boyfriend is 16. He shouldn’t be touching my 14yr old.”
”Dork.” She smiled.
”Try Dad.” Jon smiled back.
“Dad dork?” Steph smirked again. She missed her daddy when she’s not with him so this is exactly what she needed right now.
“You’re going to give me grey hair kid.”
”You have grey hair?” Mika looked up from the work she’s doing and ask.
“Yep.” Jon smiles.
“OH I’m sorry I can’t date someone with grey hair.”
“Mouthy girlfriends get themselves spanked.” Jon playfully warned.
Mika smirked but Stephanie hollered “DAD!”
“Shit sorry honey you didn’t hear that. I didn’t even come out here to tease my woman I came out to ask you –can you do me a favor – let me or Rick know when you’re leaving the room?”
”Hey Ricky is right there, he follows me everywhere.”
“As he should that’s what he’s hired to do.” Jon answered her.

“Yes daddy.” Steph smirked and kiss him on the cheek. “Going backstage now ok daddy?” She continued her in smart-alecky way.

“I love you princess.”
Steph walked away and Jon looked at Marsha who had just walked back up.

“Hey Marsha have you told Mika about kid check yet?”

”No – no one was with us until now so I was going to tell her because I just saw Stephanie.”
”OK I’ll explain. Mika if you ever hear ‘kid check’ on the walkie, if you can see any of our children, walk up to whichever one it is, find out who and say into the walkie, kid-check-Jake or whichever one you have located. We don’t like to make them feel like they are secluded to certain places so they allowed to wander around the arena by themselves, they each have their own personal security person that is supposed to be on them like glue. In Romeo’s case he has a jungle gym, but sometimes the kids outsmart their security person. That’s when kid check comes in place; we want to always make sure they are with a trusted member of the staff. If you ever have one that we have misplaced, you’ll be asked to return them to their lost parent.”

“Ok makes sense.”

“What do the kids do if they ever get scared? Do they ever get around overzealous fans or anything?”

”There is the odd time where they are freaked out by someone. They each have a codeword they can use to their guard that basically is a red alert to get them to their parent.”

”They wouldn’t use it with us?”

”No for the most part they don’t know the roadies very well. You my kids will know more obviously but their guard is their personal assistant really.”

Just then Romeo and his guard show up and Romeo is pouting.

“What’s wrong buddy?” Jon asks.

“I miss my daddy – need hug.” Romeo says and all but leaps out of his guard Tom’s arms into Jon’s.

“I love you Romeo.”

“I love you daddy.” Romeo tells him and lays his head on Jon’s shoulder finally resting enough to allow sleep to take over.

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